HOW I SURVIVED & YOU CAN TOO!
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How can you just keep living like nothing has ever happened? Why doesn’t it still bother you? Why don’t you think about it? How do you keep from thinking about it? These are just some of the questions my sister would call and ask periodically. Needing help, answers, understanding, peace…..yes, peace, that’s what she needs.
You see I was sexually abused as a child, my sister and I both was. If the truth where known I would say all four of us girls were. Grace and I were closer in age than the younger two. I was 10 & 11 years older. I had been abused most of my childhood, starting at the age of 4. It started with Grace a few years later, she was used as a tool to get me to cooperate, if I said no I would be threatened with them abusing her if I didn’t, he knew I would, in order to protect her. That is a part of her problem me taking more so she wouldn’t have to. If I allow myself to think about it after we talk, in reality, I feel I didn’t do enough to protect her.
The thing is, I did live through it. I made it through with a sound mind and few scars, physical and mental. I don’t so much look at it as why did I have to go through it but that I made it through it. Somehow I knew that the abuse did not define me. I knew that God didn’t want this to happen to me but for whatever reason didn’t stop it. I knew good from bad and I never blamed God for the bad choices of others. God was always a part of my life….even when He wasn’t. And because I lived through it I didn’t have to think about it. It was over, it is over. Like falling and scraping your knee, once healed you don’t think about it.
Maybe it doesn’t make sense but I gave it to God and He brought me through it. Even before I gave my life to Him, He took care of me. Things could’ve been worse, a lot worse but I finally realized I had a voice and that I no longer had to be forced into something I didn’t want. I would fight for my life. And I did! God has healed the mental and physical scars. Literally, even the physical scars that had been on me since I was 4 years old one day while drying off from the shower I realized that my scar was gone! Completely gone! And a couple other ones too. True story! Eye-catching, finger feeling, deep scars, GONE! That’s my God!
I know every story is different. Some abuse is much worse than others, I know that. But there is healing. I’m proof. I won’t lie thoughts try to creep into my mind at times, mostly when my sister calls but I refuse to entertain them. It’s past. I lived through it. I refuse to live as a victim. I have overcome! I love the scripture Revelation 12:11; And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death.
You need to know there is healing. You can overcome by my testimony and countless others’. No, it’s not easy for everyone. But it can be done. You can have peace of mind. You can know it was not your fault. You can be restored. Revelation 21:5 Jesus said, “Behold I make all things new.” Surrendering to Jesus brings not only salvation but newness of life. He can save, heal, deliver, and set free in one moment of time. All it takes is for you to truly believe, from your heart. In John 8:36; Jesus also said, “Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. Free means: to liberate, exempt, deliver, make free Indeed means: Certainly; of the truth, really! So this means you really can be free and delivered from your past.
I survived and so can you. Talk to someone. Find a good church and a good Christian counselor. find Jesus Christ and make Him your savior, your Redeemer, healer, and Lord. There is true freedom for your mind and body. May the Lord bless you.