ANXIETY, YES IT’S REAL!
I can’t breathe! Am I having a heart attack? Oh God, help me! Is this happening? Should I tell Joel? I feel panicky. I’m I dying? Ok Breath, just breath. No PRAY! Ok, just pray. Lord I don’t want to die. I don’t want to leave Joel to raise the children alone. The kids will be heartbroken, ok just breath and pray…Just pray.
A panic attack or another term anxiety. Have you ever been there? Oh, my word! I have to admit until that first attach I wasn’t sure I believed in them. I’m a skeptic. I believed and still do to a point that it was a way for people to get sympathy, disability, and meds, mainly meds. I’d seen it too many times in my family, the females, half were on meds for anxiety and I had seen them become addicted to too many pharmaceutical drugs so I had formed my opinion that most were just using this new condition to not work and get meds. I’m being honest, sorry if it’s harsh.
Now, I can sympathize with those who have a “panic attack” or an anxiety attack. Not because of the first time but because of the several times that I had them. I know they are real. I can see how they can take control of you. It’s easy to see why women are the main ones to get them, according to several studies I have read 2 times as many women have these attacks than men. Panic attacks are attributed to a number of things like stress (even when there is nothing to be stressed over), hormones, worry, working one’s self up over an event or something that is dreaded. Yes! I can see why women are the leaders in anxiety.
The definition of anxiety is: Feeling of worry, nervousness or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome, painful or apprehensive uneasiness of mind. Psychiatry definition: A nervous disorder characterized by a state of excessive uneasiness & apprehension typically with compulsive behavior or panic attacks.
Yes! I can see why women have more anxiety attacks. I don’t think it’s because we are under more stress than men though it can be in some cases. No, I think it’s because women tend to worry more. Yes!Yes! Yes! We worry about EVERYTHING and sometimes nothing! Women worry! We create scenarios in our minds of what “could” happen and lot’s of “what ifs”. We lay in bed at night and think of the worse things that could possibly (but not likely) go wrong.
I hate anxiety and it annoys me to see all the women giving into their fears and letting them rule their lives. I want to scream something like, “Let go and give it to God!”, or “Good grief woman stop living in so much fear!”. The truth is I realized just this week that I too live in fear. I confessed to my husband this weekend, “Everything is so good and we are so blessed that I find myself waiting for the bad to come. Like because it’s been so good for us that something bad has to happen to keep us in reality or to “get back at us”.” Now is that dumb or what!? Waiting for the sky to fall because God has blessed us. Making up something in my mind to bring unease, worry, ANXIETY! Can you relate? I bet some of you can. Staying at home because what if could happen. Going to doctor after doctor looking for something to be wrong, making yourself sick over nothing because that’s exactly what they find, nothing!
Can I tell you my biggest belief about these attacks? Can I tell you my experience and what I have come to believe? This may not be for everyone. But if you will give me just a few minutes and you will prayerfully read, maybe you can agree, if just a little with what I feel about this. Here goes, I believe that this is a way for our enemy, satan to bind us and hold us captive in our minds and our lives. You see if he can keep us worrying about a lot of nothing then he can keep us from doing a whole lot of something. For example:
If we allow anxiety to rule our lives we will do one or both of the following, 1) quit work and most social activity and stay at home (isolation, yes isolation is not good for anyone, because that alone can lead to other things like depression) In Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 it says, Two are better than one, Because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, one will lift up his companion. But woe to him who is alone when he falls, For he has no one to help him up. Again, if two lie down together, they will keep warm; But how can one be warm alone? Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him. And a threefold cord is not quickly broken. You’re not meant to be alone, there is strength in numbers if you have the right people around you. 2) Seek a quick fix with meds. The antidepressants most widely prescribed for anxiety are SSRIs such as Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil, Lexapro, and Celexa. SSRIs have been used to treat generalized anxiety disorder (GAD), obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), panic disorder, social anxiety disorder, and post-traumatic stress disorder. These have bad side effects when stopped so they are addictive. You will need to be under the supervision of a Dr. to taper off of any of these if you have taken them for more than a few weeks. And the addiction to the drugs can cause more addictions (we won’t go into all that can go along with these meds, study it for yourselves.)
Back to how satan can use anxiety, he is a thief and John 10:10 Jesus says, “ The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy”. he wants to steal your joy, your destinies, and your future, he will destroy all your relationships, your health, and your finances, and then he will take your life. That is the plan of the enemy. You see, I’m a pastor’s wife there are a lot of people connected to me. If I would give into the anxiety (fear) that tried to come on me, I would not be able to influence those that I have over the years. (I hope I’ve been a good influence) I could not type this and tell you that you can get through it without withdrawing from society, without the medicine. I did! I did but only with the help of God. I prayed, and prayed and cried and told the Lord I can’t give in to the lies of satan. I will not (& did not) go to the Dr., I prayed more and cried out to God for mercy and grace and now I have the testimony that God is my deliverer.
DISCLAIMER: *This is my testimony, I am not a Dr., I do not suggest or tell you that this is the way you should go, this is my experience. Seek Profesional help if you need to. *
Where satan meant to destroy my marriage, my family, my health, and sanity, our ministry and testimony God moved with prayer and I am moving toward my destiny in Jesus name! I will not allow him to steal what God has given and promised me by instilling fear and anxiety into my life. I will touch the lives of others with a positive influence, proving that Jesus Christ is who He says He is, Savior, Healer, Deliver, our very present help in times of trouble.
What or who is counting on you too? Who will you influence in one way or the other?
God is for you not against you!